It is really easy in this process to look at someone else and think you are more deserving. More deserving that the 16 year old who is pregnant, more deserving than the couple around you who are not as financially secure, more deserving than the mom who already has 6 children. It's easy to get trapped into the thought that we deserve a baby.
The truth is...we are not deserving of anything. We are sinners. Broken. Cursed by a choice that was made many years ago.
We deserve nothing.
But God's grace abounds, and he rescues us from the hopelessness that is surely to come without Him.
This is the GOOD NEWS!!!
Though none of us are deserving of anything, He offers us His gift of grace, in love, so that we might be spared from our transgressions and instead might get to spend eternity with Him, our King.
I think more than anything else in this process, He has been teaching me that He is enough. Whether we get a baby tomorrow, or in 10 years, His love and grace are and will always be enough for me. It's through these realizations that He is teaching me to be more gracious and loving to those around me. To realize that everyone is walking through something hard whether it be adoption, addiction, miscarriage, sickness, financial troubles, marital problems, and so much more, and that everyone could stand to be shown a little more grace.
So I challenge you, in whatever your going through, in whatever difficulty that life throws your way. Allow God's grace and love to be enough for you, and in turn, he will use you and change you in ways that you cannot imagine!
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9